MY hotboy-Paul Haupeahiki Laupua Tonga

As I think the world is against me&&my life has no meaning. ASIDE from my twinss&family he's been my ROCK i can count on to comfort me when i hve NO ONE to lean on.Just the thought of his name makes my smile =). There's no way in WORDS i can express my love for him. I might be stubborn at times (ok well all the time GOSH) he's BEEN THERE. He makes me LAUGH :D like there's no tmrrw. It's a feeling that I get when ONLY I tlk or see him. No one out there can REPLACE him or the way he makes me feel. Even though he can be a BUTT most of the time (HA) i still love him REGUARDLESS* with every OUNCE in my body. I know it may seem like a BIG word to say, but i DO NOT take it back for saying it to him! It's the only thing I feel when i'm around him, LOVED;). I guess he's just my ROMANTIC side =). To the vocals and the dance moves he got it ALL!!!(dnt judge him hahah thass my JOB) I wouidn't trade him for the world. He keeps me breathing, my HEART pumpimg and my blood flowing. It's unexplainable to express my feelings for him. He's not just my OTHER-HALF,but the love of my LIFE!I can honestly say that I'm HAPPILY TAKEN-' est.082310 ieffnloveyou

Not the same anymore ;(

Background: High school years slowly fading

free from all the drama, boys and what people say
Cereal mornings, cartoon watching
back to them good ol' days
reminiscing is all i do.
reality stepped in and "grown-ups" over ruled
problems started to come to play
profanity language were cruel
my teenage LIFE

My life be like........

Background: idk it was just on my mind =)

Where's the music I cry for pleading to crawl back in my ear,as i put my life on mute.

with cries in my head, it was hard to commute

I'm stuck in space gasping for air

my mind blends in and my thoughts screams w/ no care!

these sins help NO ONE, but struggle

lock up Lucifer and bring him back no more!

"FREE FALLING" off the twin towers and letting it go out the door

i drew my thoughts and they became images

my visions became reality

my dreams came to life

i felt weak-

i died inside but yet i still walk, is that possible?

Take me away as if i didn't exist

I am than just a thought

I linger around, but than forgotten in the mist

I am just a memory.

English III rm C-14

Background: The guy that sat next to me wouldn't SHUT UP! I swear so yeahh..you know the rest..

My heart Skipp's a beat

My mind sinks low

My head hangs down

my eyes complete darkness

Heat streams down my ears

My voice than becomes a megaphone.

And my language becomes profanity

my world is upside down

My peace locked up w/ no memory of the combination

My palms begin to sweat and my body temperatures on high

I than lost my sense of humanity. 

ROLLING W/ THE PUNCHES

Background: So there was an incident that happened at school today so these are just some of the feelings i felt at the moment.(it doesn't really make sense, they were just ideas i guess)

Sobbing blood, make-up smeared

WATCH HIM BURN!

Am i the only one that feels like this?
My peace slowly burns as I watch from afar

feeling belligerent my love & respect lost its existence

Are my cries heard!? Are my tears seen!?

Wash my pains away, let me be a reborn.

insisting on going on and on and on!

switch me out! move me around.

I can't stay anymore.get me outta this hell hole!

how loud do i need to be for you to hear me?!

what language do i need to speak for you to understand me?!

my foundation is officially shattered

my heart no longer beats for the sound of love, but rather hatred.

I no longer have the power, but i feel superior over blood

now...........................my tears shed blood*

sucha newbee ;)

okk soo i did NOT wanna blog at all twinn (ricee) told me to blog && i thot it was stupid (well at the time i did) but anywhoo i just came back from school && thought so much about it i ACTUALLY decided to do ONE! yay! =). i thought of it as a journal almost, but not really (well if that makes sense). I have no clue what you do on here soo yeahh im just gunna go with the flow and go wherever the wind takes me. my blog is stricly poetry && yeah. I would just like to thank my HEAVENLY FATHER for the many wonderful blessings and for everything he has done. I wouldn't be here without him. Though i may doubt what he has instore,but he ALWAYS pulls thru! I'm so very grateful or at least i try to be!

p.s i have SOO many people to thank too,but i'll get to those later

-xoxo