I never knew this break-up would be this bad!I guess he hella caught me off guard! I mean we just talked about this last night and all of a sudden this happened! I wasn't prepared at all!! He was suppose to be my first year together type of guy but I guess I was too much of a "distraction".. I cried so hard fo so many hours! I listened to OUR song like fifteen bagillion times including other songs we both loved! Who wuldve thought it would hurt this much and more! We were on that forever hype but I guess not :/ man this was the IT guy!!! I have never cried so hard about a guy in my life because I never thought they were even worth it! But this one was. I didn't see it coming this soon but I knew it was going to happen.not this soon. I mean I totally understand the whole mission concept, but it felt like he dropped the gernade on me! I mean dang.. everything reminds me of him! My family knew about him! Everyone loved him! I mean Mann...I didn't think a guy was capable of doing this to me! It's not the same! Heavenly father doesnt simply do things to us it always has a story behind it! I'm still trying to find my ending..I know this will make me into a strong young women it's just the matter of time getting over it .. It would be hard and it is going to challenge me! but I have my twins to help me out every step of the way!
I know a mission is super important but letting Someone go is something else! I swear I didn't think it was going to hurt this bad! (sigh) life goes on... Idk what to do..I guess I'll let life take it's course..